i used to hv dis fren of mine whom is so close to me dat we were rather inseparable den..we go out every so often n never fail to chat on de phone every now n den..she would turn to me whenever she had problems, with either sch or home..we had dis frenship dat others would b envious of..sure..we had our share of misunderstandings but it only helps in building up our frenship...
but things started to changed after we graduated from college..we made different choices for our further education..she was admitted to a local uni n i decided on a private sch for my degree..initially we still meet to catch up on each other's life..but as time passes, she became more involved wif her uni until a pt dat we (our sec clique) literally hv to make an 'appointment' wif her many days or even wks in advance..n dis 'appointments' do not guarantee her showing up most of the time..dis boils down to us meetin up not more den 15 times de whole of last yr ( if i rem correctly), which is so absurb!! surely de foundation of our frenship deserves more den de mere 15 times rite??
sometimes she makes me wonder y she's forsakin us for new frenz?? becoz they had a more interesting & exciting life compared to ours? or juz becoz they ARE in uni?? i'm quite disappointed in dis frenship..i do hv other frenz in my life now too (in case i sounded too clingy)..JQ used to tell me dat he feels dat i treat my frenz better den him..which is quite true..i give priority to my close frenz rather den bf..y doesn she treasure de frenship? cant she make an effort to ask us out instead of us doin so almost all de time??
haiz..mayb i'm juz oversensitive on dis..or mayb becoz of PMS..hur hur hur...i dunno wat to think right now..i'm overcome by sleepiness..
tmr will b a better day...................
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